Rough Nights

Rough nights don't come very often, but when they do I find them really difficult. We had a difficult one last night. I think the reality of how hard it is every night alone is starting to eat at me a little a lot. Even with my friends and family around I sometimes feel like I am going through this alone.... because I am. She is my responsibility and no one else's. My mom is here for another week and the rest of my family is always here, but no one is going to be there every night for Marlowe except for me. I'm happy to be there for her... I love Marlowe- I love every single little bit of her, but there are times that I wish it was easier. I know I can do this. Every time she cries I find myself joking and saying "Marlowe, you're being a baby". But maybe, I'm being a baby. I just have to continue to suck it up and get through everything. I know I can do this. Suck it up. Suck it up. Suck it up.

"CLAP YOUR HANDS!

But I feel so lonely

CLAP YOUR HANDS!

But it won't do nothing

CLAP YOUR HANDS!

But I have no money

CLAP YOUR HANDS!

Are you up to something?

CLAP YOUR HANDS!

Where's my milk and honey?

CLAP YOUR HANDS!

But I just look funny

CLAP YOUR HANDS!

I'll just wait awhile"